I don't know why I going to talk about that entrusting day, it's
unbelievable but really I don't know who entrusted, and what entrusted
with me, and even I couldn't understand for what and why I have had to
accept that.

"What lies behind us and what lies ahead of us are tiny matters compared to what lives within us."
Monday's evening I convoyed them, the family that had lost
everything, they were poor and weak, and their clever children's
childhood pleasure was disappeared, elders were hopeless and worse
unpromising.
Why unintentionally I asked myself what made them like that? Is this their portion? Or what? Why world is like that? Why..., and this kind of stunner questions.
They left our land but their dog leading life made me confused and crazy, I think of them and everyone like us...
It was twenty-third of Augusts in 1985 I have come here, what a day, what an interesting day.
I don't know why I going to talk about that entrusting day, it's unbelievable but really I don't know who entrusted, and what entrusted with me, and even I couldn't understand for what and why I have had to accept that.
Nevertheless, when I think of that time, I could remember something maybe because of that; I've decided this uncertain thing or something like that.
You know what craze me, when I came here, this world was smack of simple and honest people, smack of people that they promised to accept me simple and honest, even itself had was. By the way, if they are not in the both of sides, maybe it's hard to understand but I know you are getting my idea they and their promise are not important for me at least in the mean time, they shattered my hope of themselves, they are going too far from me.
It seems I have grown up now, but do not ask why I have not matured. You just think what can make your life better if you pin your hope on your trustworthy people who have left your life and even enforced you in ridiculously way leave your life, go, and live their life. What a pity for us when we were weak, we had to be under their thumbs. What a fine friends, what a fine trustee they were!
Can you help me dear reader? Can you answer me, what is the rub at least with me? Why I think someone or something that enforced us suffer this life played trick on us?
Why are you silent like this? Why don't you like stop me? What are you talking about? ask me, Or be honest and Talk with me, tell me don't waste your breath; tell me that you have this craze too than at least maybe you can be someone who is my comfort.
Oh God; I going to finish it, I think these kinds of questions have blackened my character in front of you. So forget my words please!
And, I've completely lost myself and I don't mind.
Why unintentionally I asked myself what made them like that? Is this their portion? Or what? Why world is like that? Why..., and this kind of stunner questions.
They left our land but their dog leading life made me confused and crazy, I think of them and everyone like us...
It was twenty-third of Augusts in 1985 I have come here, what a day, what an interesting day.
I don't know why I going to talk about that entrusting day, it's unbelievable but really I don't know who entrusted, and what entrusted with me, and even I couldn't understand for what and why I have had to accept that.
Nevertheless, when I think of that time, I could remember something maybe because of that; I've decided this uncertain thing or something like that.
You know what craze me, when I came here, this world was smack of simple and honest people, smack of people that they promised to accept me simple and honest, even itself had was. By the way, if they are not in the both of sides, maybe it's hard to understand but I know you are getting my idea they and their promise are not important for me at least in the mean time, they shattered my hope of themselves, they are going too far from me.
It seems I have grown up now, but do not ask why I have not matured. You just think what can make your life better if you pin your hope on your trustworthy people who have left your life and even enforced you in ridiculously way leave your life, go, and live their life. What a pity for us when we were weak, we had to be under their thumbs. What a fine friends, what a fine trustee they were!
Can you help me dear reader? Can you answer me, what is the rub at least with me? Why I think someone or something that enforced us suffer this life played trick on us?
Why are you silent like this? Why don't you like stop me? What are you talking about? ask me, Or be honest and Talk with me, tell me don't waste your breath; tell me that you have this craze too than at least maybe you can be someone who is my comfort.
Oh God; I going to finish it, I think these kinds of questions have blackened my character in front of you. So forget my words please!
And, I've completely lost myself and I don't mind.






che matne adabiye zibaee! ino khodetoon neveshtid?